Bwahahahaha >D

Hello all !!

I'm backkk wheee lol ^_^. Bleh its been quite a while eh ...

Pft lots of things changed in the past two months or so  - for one ... I'm thinking of going back playing PS and PS 2 Suikoden series XD lol but that gotta wait till holiday ... Its week 10 now just 3 more week before the end of the semester >.< and there are still lets see ... ariund 6 more assignments to do yay ^o^ and 4 exams :p (one of them is take home so yeh :p)

So my "urgent" priority is ... STUDY STUDY STUDY XD

and my "important" priority is start saving up and heh let life unfold itself, when the time come ... it will happen  . My relationship is also an important priority, they say its like investment and heh lets all face it life is ever changing and honestly if u dont change then somethiing / people around u change so u cant just say "its good now so I wont do anything" that may cause contempt on the other party ... relationship (and friendship in that matter coz my girl is also my friend ... hehe the bestest if I may add   ) is build and re-build everyday its shaped by the things that u do and it require constant renewall, u cant just sit there and hope a flower will grow beautifully. Time will be the test ... but us ourselves is also part of the test ... what we all need is effort ... I know this firsthand, know the differences between real friends and ppl who are there coz they want something (heh its not good to be judgemental but its true u know) ah well thats my 2 cent worth. ... I miss my pyung T_T

 Anyway ... its good to be back

ah and the quote for the day is "Patience is all the strength man needs" - Sai Baba (hmmm cute name wonder how they actually pronounce is) 

Ahhhhh its been awhile since my last visit here hehe

Some stuffs happened and I get to learn new things yay ^_^ life really is a journey and we are in it for lessons (whether we like it or not - thats the way life is).

Let see ... ahh this room is a mess lol bleh I'm cleaning it up now ^_^ wheee new semester new everything - gotta start fresh

Awh we (Dan, Ian and me) went to MSY @ Caufield yesterday - those two wanted to buy some computer part *tsk tsk* I want a new Video Card too XD but ah well lets think bout spending after re-doing my budgeting. Went there with Dan's friend's car which he claim is similar to his car *tsk tsk* nice modification dude (pftt when did I start liking car modification xD ... hiks Mini hiks) - went to eat at Sen Hing (or sumtin like that) nice deep fried crispy stuff btw if any of u r interested. Anyway ... we also ended up checking up Lineage II (damn it people we need to study its last year ... *sigh* LOL ah well seems like we cant say no to free MMORPG)

Awh let see ... this year gonna be great I already learnt quite a lot of lessons in the past few months all is good

Salsa / Meryllin competition tonite ^_^ and I'm learning to drive manual as well xD wat else is new ... ah budgeting budgeting XD need to re-calculate everything ho ho ho and fixing responsibilties ... (I got 1 company really under me now and another jointly ... phew as a matter of fact I just called the accountant just now to fix stuff up) add Uni to that and voila I got an interesting life :D in short ... I need to re-learn time management xp~~

Ahh ... and I'm free flying now spreading my wing to fly higher than before for sure 3 days are all that I needed hehe.

Ah time to reply that letter >.< can ne1 suggest how does Indonesia and Australia interact in one way or another (Business, Political, etc etc watever).

~e~

Hey all

Just wanted to share with y'all that I've been ****ed up in the past couple of days hehe well its really not a big deal seems like I just made it big u see my bad my bad.

The root of it all? EGO ... yep EGO got the best of me, I felt insecure, felt jelous, felt as if I was being used etc. And memories from the past haunt me back as well since similar thing happened to me in the past and yeh it wasnt good But I should have known better ... shudnt have let EGO control me ^_^ so yeh sorry ... my bad.

St Francis of Assisi's prayer + some friends help me to get back to my feet, thanks peeps :

Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy;

O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled as to console.
To be understood as to understand,
To be loved as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
It is in dying to self that we are born to eternal life.

I realize that this is the present ... there is no point of bringing the past to my life now - it was the major source of the fear - I learnt from the past that it is good to confront your fear and sometimes it is NOT WISE to wait... so here goes:


Dear You Know Who,

I honestly believe that the flow has gone bazzonk ... and it is not fair for both of us to just think our way ... I think its better if we could make a decision together; I really would like you to remember my promise that I've said before ... I understand that you might have your fear as well because of what happened in the past but I assure you that I'm not like that guy who said he gonna kill u or anything like that ... please have faith in me, I appreciate our friendship and wish that it could continue.

I would understand if you dont share the feeling that I have for you but please tell me so ... coz so far I feel like ur hanging me in the hook and I dont like that. Really ... I just want to try to understand you I dont want to jump to my own conclusion - I need you in this ... ur voice count coz there is you in it ... its not just me, I would appreciate the other side story u know

I also would like to ask for an apology if anything that I did / said that might hurt you in any way ... I dont mean to hurt you.

Yeah thats all ... I put it here coz I guess this is the only way for me to reach u at this point ... u seems bussy lately, hope to hear a reply from u soon -u know how to reach me- wish u all the best for today ^_^ ciao.

-Qq-

~e~

Ok let see ... here are some things that I need to prioritize:

# Uni (Last Year)
# Final year project (bah nearly forgot bout this lol)
# Work - Baskin
# Work - CCOS
# Work BB (and BB2)
# Dance Practise
# Dance Medal / Competiton
# MTG
# Play (coz all work and no play gonna make me dull :p)
# Meditation (I've learnt that to keep a positive mindset I need this)
# Friends
# Family
# Relationship
# Balance Sheet (and stuffs to purchase including but not limited to Mini and property :p~~ mwahahah >D )

sigh ... well we all know that time is limited and as such we cant do all of this at once thats why we gotta set our priority right which might means we have to make sacrifices here and there ... even sacrificing things we like just to get ahead hehe ^_^

ok here are my rationale behind my choice:

Uni - one more year to go yay ^_^ + the final year project ... well of course this need to be put as first priority

Works ... they take up energy and time but its a family thing so I have my responsibity in here as well ... need to check my timetable for this year and set it up so that I could put in some work in it as well (of course I know my limit ... cant put as much as I did during summer holiday )

Dance ... geh I'm in love with it ... and I really want to be good @ it ... but with less work = less money I prolly gonna have some financial trouble with it (face it dancing is not cheap XD ) ... probably I will cut down some hours @ studio and practise harder @ home (need to find someone as dancing partner tho...)

MTG ... magic cards ... *sigh* the tournament are good but then again they cost money and I probably have to give up on this one occasional fun play (with my available decks) are alrite but yeh no more buying card - save money xp

Play ... yup need to have balance in life ... lets count dancing as play and occasional going out as well (Noni is coming back so soon Baskin crew gonna start their usual weekly "meeting" again XD ) ... online games ... crossed out !! they take up ridiculous amount of time and energy as much as I love them I gotta sacrifice them for time and energy :p cant afford getting sick this year ho ho.

Meditation - by waking up early everyday I could spare 10 - 15 minutes for this :p ahhh the joy of blissfull silence ^_^ just what we all need in this crazy world we live in :p hey its crazy but its fun just gotta keep our positive mindset strong

Friends - gotta have them in life will b there when they need me but have to take into account that we cant satisfy every1 and each of us have our own life as well as such ... need to know when to have fun together and when to choose our life over our friend ^_^

Family - definitely important enough said.

Relationship - girlfriend is non-existant so I guess I have no worry on this department (altho one could argue that I should be worrying in finding one :p bwahahahhaha) but hell ... just let it flow; seems like nature have their own way of handling things just keep our faith and hope and yah i'm sure when the time comes i'll be notified by nature... ^_^

Balance Sheet - gehhh I want MINI >.< ... but I want a property as well :p owh and I need money for dancing XD LOL hehehe I guess just need to work hard when the time comes ^_^

So in short ... my short term goals (1 year time) are -in order-:
1. Finish Uni + Final Project
2. Save up money on the way
3. Spend more time with family
4. Silver Medal @ Latin / Street - stuff ballroom :p lol (+ Finding a dance partner)
A. Meditation (this is like a daily thingie :p)
B. Play XD

And the longer term goal (3 years max) are -in order-:
1. Work - help family-
2. Save up even more money on the way
3. Gold Star Medal @ Latin / Street (Shud have a partner to try Pro competition / or even teaching :p by this time if not ... try harder XD lol)
4. Ahh .. maybe shud try looking for that someone as well by this time ...
A. Mediation
B. Spend more time with family
C. Play Harder
D. Driving my MINI around :p modify it on the way lol ^o^ damn u Daniel for giving me ideas about Car Show XD lol


Ah thats about it for now
Of course have to be flexible and somewhere down the road something urgent might pop up and things might change oh well ^_^ the only way to enjoy life is ... TO LIVE IT !! >D

~e~

Ola ^_^

Did my Bronze Latin medal yesterday hehehe and I got Honours for it :D man God Bless that Salsa Pants lol once u wear it ur in a dancer mindset :p nothing can go wrong ^o^ got good comments from the judge as well + the social dance wheee I'm happy hehehe ^o^

On top of that my plung sister came back to Melbourne yesterday hope u'd feel better soon ^_^ ur a strong one :p lil things like that wont kill u mwahahahah >D ahhh ... thanks for the insights as well ... made me really count my blessings tq tq.

Ok so today I'll b working till like around 10 XD ah well at least I got something to do ... better then sitting there doing nothing and mind wandering to places u dont want to go (ironic isnt it that that always happen); so ... the cure u ask? DO SOMETHING TO FILL IN UR TIME ^_^ which remind me I gotta reply that letter and finish of the report for ANSYS project.

Mmmmm let see what else do I need to fix up ... ahhh need to make adjustment to enrolment (geh Uni actually start tomorrow and I'm not in the "right" subjects yet - its becoming a ritual by now every single semester always have to make adjustment but really nothing beats 1st semester ever how they enrolled me in Biology XD for those who are wondering ... I'm doing Computer System Engineering & Business Administration :p ah wel thats RMIT for u lol - :p I'll just do the usual - rocking up to classes and properly enrol later on)

Timetabling need to be done soon as well so I could manage my time more efficiently - taking into account I'm aiming for silver @ next medal night ahh nearly forgot ... every1 please also say congratz to Christina who did her Bronze Street Latin and had Honours as well yesterday - ok Plung when is ur turn huh? huh? huh? :p Damn this studio need more guys XD those who are interested dont hesitate to ask question :p dancing is good *nod*

Bleh didnt have enough sleep yesterday for some reason "something" woke me up @ around 3:45 / 4:00 and I cant go back to sleep till about 6:20 ... so in total I slept for around 3 hours or so but strange thing is ... I'm feeling healthier than a mountain Ox :p

Ah well ... thats all for now I guess ^_^ and the thought for today isssssssss:

Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.

Thats Roosevelt's btw

~e~